Of Human Bondage 人性的枷锁 Chapter 74
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The following Saturday Mildred returned, and that evening Philip kept her to himself. He took seats for the play, and they drank champagne1 at dinner. It was her first gaiety in London for so long that she enjoyed everything ingenuously2. She cuddled up to Philip when they drove from the theatre to the room he had taken for her in Pimlico.
'I really believe you're quite glad to see me,' he said.
She did not answer, but gently pressed his hand. Demonstrations3 of affection were so rare with her that Philip was enchanted4.
'I've asked Griffiths to dine with us tomorrow,' he told her.
'Oh, I'm glad you've done that. I wanted to meet him.'
There was no place of entertainment to take her to on Sunday night, and Philip was afraid she would be bored if she were alone with him all day. Griffiths was amusing; he would help them to get through the evening; and Philip was so fond of them both that he wanted them to know and to like one another. He left Mildred with the words:
'Only six days more.'
They had arranged to dine in the gallery at Romano's on Sunday, because the dinner was excellent and looked as though it cost a good deal more than it did. Philip and Mildred arrived first and had to wait some time for Griffiths.
'He's an unpunctual devil,' said Philip. 'He's probably making love to one of his numerous flames.'
But presently he appeared. He was a handsome creature, tall and thin; his head was placed well on the body, it gave him a conquering air which was attractive; and his curly hair, his bold, friendly blue eyes, his red mouth, were charming. Philip saw Mildred look at him with appreciation5, and he felt a curious satisfaction. Griffiths greeted them with a smile.
'I've heard a great deal about you,' he said to Mildred, as he took her hand.
'Not so much as I've heard about you,' she answered.
'Nor so bad,' said. Philip.
'Has he been blackening my character?'
Griffiths laughed, and Philip saw that Mildred noticed how white and regular his teeth were and how pleasant his smile.
'You ought to feel like old friends,' said Philip. 'I've talked so much about you to one another.'
Griffiths was in the best possible humour, for, having at length passed his final examination, he was qualified6, and he had just been appointed house-surgeon at a hospital in the North of London. He was taking up his duties at the beginning of May and meanwhile was going home for a holiday; this was his last week in town, and he was determined7 to get as much enjoyment8 into it as he could. He began to talk the gay nonsense which Philip admired because he could not copy it. There was nothing much in what he said, but his vivacity9 gave it point. There flowed from him a force of life which affected10 everyone who knew him; it was almost as sensible as bodily warmth. Mildred was more lively than Philip had ever known her, and he was delighted to see that his little party was a success. She was amusing herself enormously. She laughed louder and louder. She quite forgot the genteel reserve which had become second nature to her.
Presently Griffiths said:
'I say, it's dreadfully difficult for me to call you Mrs. Miller11. Philip never calls you anything but Mildred.'
'I daresay she won't scratch your eyes out if you call her that too,' laughed Philip.
'Then she must call me Harry12.'
Philip sat silent while they chattered13 away and thought how good it was to see people happy. Now and then Griffiths teased him a little, kindly14, because he was always so serious.
'I believe he's quite fond of you, Philip,' smiled Mildred.
'He isn't a bad old thing,' answered Griffiths, and taking Philip's hand he shook it gaily15.
It seemed an added charm in Griffiths that he liked Philip. They were all sober people, and the wine they had drunk went to their heads. Griffiths became more talkative and so boisterous17 that Philip, amused, had to beg him to be quiet. He had a gift for story-telling, and his adventures lost nothing of their romance and their laughter in his narration18. He played in all of them a gallant19, humorous part. Mildred, her eyes shining with excitement, urged him on. He poured out anecdote20 after anecdote. When the lights began to be turned out she was astonished.
'My word, the evening has gone quickly. I thought it wasn't more than half past nine.'
They got up to go and when she said good-bye, she added:
'I'm coming to have tea at Philip's room tomorrow. You might look in if you can.'
'All right,' he smiled.
On the way back to Pimlico Mildred talked of nothing but Griffiths. She was taken with his good looks, his well-cut clothes, his voice, his gaiety.
'I am glad you like him,' said Philip. 'D'you remember you were rather sniffy about meeting him?'
'I think it's so nice of him to be so fond of you, Philip. He is a nice friend for you to have.'
She put up her face to Philip for him to kiss her. It was a thing she did rarely.
'I have enjoyed myself this evening, Philip. Thank you so much.'
'Don't be so absurd,' he laughed, touched by her appreciation so that he felt the moisture come to his eyes.
She opened her door and just before she went in, turned again to Philip.
'Tell Harry I'm madly in love with him,' she said.
'All right,' he laughed. 'Good-night.'
Next day, when they were having tea, Griffiths came in. He sank lazily into an arm-chair. There was something strangely sensual in the slow movements of his large limbs. Philip remained silent, while the others chattered away, but he was enjoying himself. He admired them both so much that it seemed natural enough for them to admire one another. He did not care if Griffiths absorbed Mildred's attention, he would have her to himself during the evening: he had something of the attitude of a loving husband, confident in his wife's affection, who looks on with amusement while she flirts21 harmlessly with a stranger. But at half past seven he looked at his watch and said:
'It's about time we went out to dinner, Mildred.'
There was a moment's pause, and Griffiths seemed to be considering.
'Well, I'll be getting along,' he said at last. 'I didn't know it was so late.'
'Are you doing anything tonight?' asked Mildred.
There was another silence. Philip felt slightly irritated.
'I'll just go and have a wash,' he said, and to Mildred he added: 'Would you like to wash your hands?'
She did not answer him.
'Why don't you come and dine with us?' she said to Griffiths.
He looked at Philip and saw him staring at him sombrely.
'I dined with you last night,' he laughed. 'I should be in the way.'
'Oh, that doesn't matter,' insisted Mildred. 'Make him come, Philip. He won't be in the way, will he?'
'Let him come by all means if he'd like to.'
'All right, then,' said Griffiths promptly22. 'I'll just go upstairs and tidy myself.'
The moment he left the room Philip turned to Mildred angrily.
'Why on earth did you ask him to dine with us?'
'I couldn't help myself. It would have looked so funny to say nothing when he said he wasn't doing anything.'
'Oh, what rot! And why the hell did you ask him if he was doing anything?'
Mildred's pale lips tightened23 a little.
'I want a little amusement sometimes. I get tired always being alone with you.'
They heard Griffiths coming heavily down the stairs, and Philip went into his bed-room to wash. They dined in the neighbourhood in an Italian restaurant. Philip was cross and silent, but he quickly realised that he was showing to disadvantage in comparison with Griffiths, and he forced himself to hide his annoyance24. He drank a good deal of wine to destroy the pain that was gnawing25 at his heart, and he set himself to talk. Mildred, as though remorseful26 for what she had said, did all she could to make herself pleasant to him. She was kindly and affectionate. Presently Philip began to think he had been a fool to surrender to a feeling of jealousy27. After dinner when they got into a hansom to drive to a music-hall Mildred, sitting between the two men, of her own accord gave him her hand. His anger vanished. Suddenly, he knew not how, he grew conscious that Griffiths was holding her other hand. The pain seized him again violently, it was a real physical pain, and he asked himself, panic-stricken, what he might have asked himself before, whether Mildred and Griffiths were in love with one another. He could not see anything of the performance on account of the mist of suspicion, anger, dismay, and wretchedness which seemed to be before his eyes; but he forced himself to conceal28 the fact that anything was the matter; he went on talking and laughing. Then a strange desire to torture himself seized him, and he got up, saying he wanted to go and drink something. Mildred and Griffiths had never been alone together for a moment. He wanted to leave them by themselves.
'I'll come too,' said Griffiths. 'I've got rather a thirst on.'
'Oh, nonsense, you stay and talk to Mildred.'
Philip did not know why he said that. He was throwing them together now to make the pain he suffered more intolerable. He did not go to the bar, but up into the balcony, from where he could watch them and not be seen. They had ceased to look at the stage and were smiling into one another's eyes. Griffiths was talking with his usual happy fluency29 and Mildred seemed to hang on his lips. Philip's head began to ache frightfully. He stood there motionless. He knew he would be in the way if he went back. They were enjoying themselves without him, and he was suffering, suffering. Time passed, and now he had an extraordinary shyness about rejoining them. He knew they had not thought of him at all, and he reflected bitterly that he had paid for the dinner and their seats in the music-hall. What a fool they were making of him! He was hot with shame. He could see how happy they were without him. His instinct was to leave them to themselves and go home, but he had not his hat and coat, and it would necessitate30 endless explanations. He went back. He felt a shadow of annoyance in Mildred's eyes when she saw him, and his heart sank.
'You've been a devil of a time,' said Griffiths, with a smile of welcome.
'I met some men I knew. I've been talking to them, and I couldn't get away. I thought you'd be all right together.'
'I've been enjoying myself thoroughly,' said Griffiths. 'I don't know about Mildred.'
She gave a little laugh of happy complacency. There was a vulgar sound in the ring of it that horrified31 Philip. He suggested that they should go.
'Come on,' said Griffiths, 'we'll both drive you home.'
Philip suspected that she had suggested that arrangement so that she might not be left alone with him. In the cab he did not take her hand nor did she offer it, and he knew all the time that she was holding Griffiths'. His chief thought was that it was all so horribly vulgar. As they drove along he asked himself what plans they had made to meet without his knowledge, he cursed himself for having left them alone, he had actually gone out of his way to enable them to arrange things.
'Let's keep the cab,' said Philip, when they reached the house in which Mildred was lodging32. 'I'm too tired to walk home.'
On the way back Griffiths talked gaily and seemed indifferent to the fact that Philip answered in monosyllables. Philip felt he must notice that something was the matter. Philip's silence at last grew too significant to struggle against, and Griffiths, suddenly nervous, ceased talking. Philip wanted to say something, but he was so shy he could hardly bring himself to, and yet the time was passing and the opportunity would be lost. It was best to get at the truth at once. He forced himself to speak.
'Are you in love with Mildred?' he asked suddenly.
'I?' Griffiths laughed. 'Is that what you've been so funny about this evening? Of course not, my dear old man.'
He tried to slip his hand through Philip's arm, but Philip drew himself away. He knew Griffiths was lying. He could not bring himself to force Griffiths to tell him that he had not been holding the girl's hand. He suddenly felt very weak and broken.
'It doesn't matter to you, Harry,' he said. 'You've got so many women—don't take her away from me. It means my whole life. I've been so awfully33 wretched.'
His voice broke, and he could not prevent the sob16 that was torn from him. He was horribly ashamed of himself.
'My dear old boy, you know I wouldn't do anything to hurt you. I'm far too fond of you for that. I was only playing the fool. If I'd known you were going to take it like that I'd have been more careful.'
'Is that true?' asked Philip.
'I don't care a twopenny damn for her. I give you my word of honour.'
Philip gave a sigh of relief. The cab stopped at their door.


1 champagne iwBzh3     
  • There were two glasses of champagne on the tray.托盘里有两杯香槟酒。
  • They sat there swilling champagne.他们坐在那里大喝香槟酒。
2 ingenuously 70b75fa07a553aa716ee077a3105c751     
  • Voldemort stared at him ingenuously. The man MUST have lost his marbles. 魔王愕然向对方望过去。这家伙绝对疯了。 来自互联网
3 demonstrations 0922be6a2a3be4bdbebd28c620ab8f2d     
证明( demonstration的名词复数 ); 表明; 表达; 游行示威
  • Lectures will be interspersed with practical demonstrations. 讲课中将不时插入实际示范。
  • The new military government has banned strikes and demonstrations. 新的军人政府禁止罢工和示威活动。
4 enchanted enchanted     
adj. 被施魔法的,陶醉的,入迷的 动词enchant的过去式和过去分词
  • She was enchanted by the flowers you sent her. 她非常喜欢你送给她的花。
  • He was enchanted by the idea. 他为这个主意而欣喜若狂。
5 appreciation Pv9zs     
  • I would like to express my appreciation and thanks to you all.我想对你们所有人表达我的感激和谢意。
  • I'll be sending them a donation in appreciation of their help.我将送给他们一笔捐款以感谢他们的帮助。
6 qualified DCPyj     
  • He is qualified as a complete man of letters.他有资格当真正的文学家。
  • We must note that we still lack qualified specialists.我们必须看到我们还缺乏有资质的专家。
7 determined duszmP     
  • I have determined on going to Tibet after graduation.我已决定毕业后去西藏。
  • He determined to view the rooms behind the office.他决定查看一下办公室后面的房间。
8 enjoyment opaxV     
  • Your company adds to the enjoyment of our visit. 有您的陪同,我们这次访问更加愉快了。
  • After each joke the old man cackled his enjoyment.每逢讲完一个笑话,这老人就呵呵笑着表示他的高兴。
9 vivacity ZhBw3     
  • Her charm resides in her vivacity.她的魅力存在于她的活泼。
  • He was charmed by her vivacity and high spirits.她的活泼与兴高采烈的情绪把他迷住了。
10 affected TzUzg0     
  • She showed an affected interest in our subject.她假装对我们的课题感到兴趣。
  • His manners are affected.他的态度不自然。
11 miller ZD6xf     
  • Every miller draws water to his own mill.磨坊主都往自己磨里注水。
  • The skilful miller killed millions of lions with his ski.技术娴熟的磨坊主用雪橇杀死了上百万头狮子。
12 harry heBxS     
  • Today,people feel more hurried and harried.今天,人们感到更加忙碌和苦恼。
  • Obama harried business by Healthcare Reform plan.奥巴马用医改掠夺了商界。
13 chattered 0230d885b9f6d176177681b6eaf4b86f     
(人)喋喋不休( chatter的过去式 ); 唠叨; (牙齿)打战; (机器)震颤
  • They chattered away happily for a while. 他们高兴地闲扯了一会儿。
  • We chattered like two teenagers. 我们聊着天,像两个十多岁的孩子。
14 kindly tpUzhQ     
  • Her neighbours spoke of her as kindly and hospitable.她的邻居都说她和蔼可亲、热情好客。
  • A shadow passed over the kindly face of the old woman.一道阴影掠过老太太慈祥的面孔。
15 gaily lfPzC     
  • The children sing gaily.孩子们欢唱着。
  • She waved goodbye very gaily.她欢快地挥手告别。
16 sob HwMwx     
  • The child started to sob when he couldn't find his mother.孩子因找不到他妈妈哭了起来。
  • The girl didn't answer,but continued to sob with her head on the table.那个女孩不回答,也不抬起头来。她只顾低声哭着。
17 boisterous it0zJ     
  • I don't condescend to boisterous displays of it.我并不屈就于它热热闹闹的外表。
  • The children tended to gather together quietly for a while before they broke into boisterous play.孩子们经常是先静静地聚集在一起,不一会就开始吵吵嚷嚷戏耍开了。
18 narration tFvxS     
  • The richness of his novel comes from his narration of it.他小说的丰富多采得益于他的叙述。
  • Narration should become a basic approach to preschool education.叙事应是幼儿教育的基本途径。
19 gallant 66Myb     
  • Huang Jiguang's gallant deed is known by all men. 黄继光的英勇事迹尽人皆知。
  • These gallant soldiers will protect our country.这些勇敢的士兵会保卫我们的国家的。
20 anecdote 7wRzd     
  • He departed from the text to tell an anecdote.他偏离课文讲起了一则轶事。
  • It had never been more than a family anecdote.那不过是个家庭趣谈罢了。
21 flirts 5848f49822390f17228dd78b6d46e6b8     
v.调情,打情骂俏( flirt的第三人称单数 )
  • She flirts with every man she meets. 她同她遇到的每个男人调情。 来自《简明英汉词典》
  • She flirts with every handsome man she meets. 她和所遇到的每个美男子调情。 来自《现代英汉综合大词典》
22 promptly LRMxm     
  • He paid the money back promptly.他立即还了钱。
  • She promptly seized the opportunity his absence gave her.她立即抓住了因他不在场给她创造的机会。
23 tightened bd3d8363419d9ff838bae0ba51722ee9     
收紧( tighten的过去式和过去分词 ); (使)变紧; (使)绷紧; 加紧
  • The rope holding the boat suddenly tightened and broke. 系船的绳子突然绷断了。
  • His index finger tightened on the trigger but then relaxed again. 他的食指扣住扳机,然后又松开了。
24 annoyance Bw4zE     
  • Why do you always take your annoyance out on me?为什么你不高兴时总是对我出气?
  • I felt annoyance at being teased.我恼恨别人取笑我。
25 gnawing GsWzWk     
  • The dog was gnawing a bone. 那狗在啃骨头。
  • These doubts had been gnawing at him for some time. 这些疑虑已经折磨他一段时间了。
26 remorseful IBBzo     
  • He represented to the court that the accused was very remorseful.他代被告向法庭陈情说被告十分懊悔。
  • The minister well knew--subtle,but remorseful hypocrite that he was!牧师深知这一切——他是一个多么难以捉摸又懊悔不迭的伪君子啊!
27 jealousy WaRz6     
  • Some women have a disposition to jealousy.有些女人生性爱妒忌。
  • I can't support your jealousy any longer.我再也无法忍受你的嫉妒了。
28 conceal DpYzt     
  • He had to conceal his identity to escape the police.为了躲避警方,他只好隐瞒身份。
  • He could hardly conceal his joy at his departure.他几乎掩饰不住临行时的喜悦。
29 fluency ajCxF     
  • More practice will make you speak with greater fluency.多练习就可以使你的口语更流利。
  • Some young children achieve great fluency in their reading.一些孩子小小年纪阅读已经非常流畅。
30 necessitate 5Gkxn     
  • Your proposal would necessitate changing our plans.你的提议可能使我们的计划必须变更。
  • The conversion will necessitate the complete rebuilding of the interior.转变就必需完善内部重建。
31 horrified 8rUzZU     
  • The whole country was horrified by the killings. 全国都对这些凶杀案感到大为震惊。
  • We were horrified at the conditions prevailing in local prisons. 地方监狱的普遍状况让我们震惊。
32 lodging wRgz9     
  • The bill is inclusive of the food and lodging. 账单包括吃、住费用。
  • Where can you find lodging for the night? 你今晚在哪里借宿?
33 awfully MPkym     
  • Agriculture was awfully neglected in the past.过去农业遭到严重忽视。
  • I've been feeling awfully bad about it.对这我一直感到很难受。
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