Of Human Bondage 人性的枷锁 Chapter 48

When Philip returned to Amitrano's he found that Fanny Price was no longer working there. She had given up the key of her locker¹. He asked Mrs. Otter² whether she knew what had become of her; and Mrs. Otter, with a shrug³ of the shoulders, answered that she had probably gone back to England. Philip was relieved. He was profoundly bored by her ill-temper. Moreover she insisted on advising him about his work, looked upon it as a slight when he did not follow her precepts⁴, and would not understand that he felt himself no longer the duffer he had been at first. Soon he forgot all about her. He was working in oils now and he was full of enthusiasm. He hoped to have something done of sufficient importance to send to the following year's Salon⁵. Lawson was painting a portrait of Miss Chalice⁶. She was very paintable, and all the young men who had fallen victims to her charm had made portraits of her. A natural indolence, joined with a passion for picturesque⁷ attitude, made her an excellent sitter; and she had enough technical knowledge to offer useful criticisms. Since her passion for art was chiefly a passion to live the life of artists, she was quite content to neglect her own work. She liked the warmth of the studio, and the opportunity to smoke innumerable cigarettes; and she spoke⁸ in a low, pleasant voice of the love of art and the art of love. She made no clear distinction between the two.

 

Lawson was painting with infinite labour, working till he could hardly stand for days and then scraping out all he had done. He would have exhausted⁹ the patience of anyone but Ruth Chalice. At last he got into a hopeless muddle¹⁰.

 

'The only thing is to take a new canvas and start fresh,' he said. 'I know exactly what I want now, and it won't take me long.'

 

Philip was present at the time, and Miss Chalice said to him:

 

'Why don't you paint me too? You'll be able to learn a lot by watching Mr. Lawson.'

 

It was one of Miss Chalice's delicacies¹¹ that she always addressed her lovers by their surnames.

 

'I should like it awfully¹² if Lawson wouldn't mind.'

 

'I don't care a damn,' said Lawson.

 

It was the first time that Philip set about a portrait, and he began with trepidation¹³ but also with pride. He sat by Lawson and painted as he saw him paint. He profited by the example and by the advice which both Lawson and Miss Chalice freely gave him. At last Lawson finished and invited Clutton in to criticise¹⁴. Clutton had only just come back to Paris. From Provence he had drifted down to Spain, eager to see Velasquez at Madrid, and thence he had gone to Toledo. He stayed there three months, and he was returned with a name new to the young men: he had wonderful things to say of a painter called El Greco, who it appeared could only be studied in Toledo.

 

'Oh yes, I know about him,' said Lawson, 'he's the old master whose distinction it is that he painted as badly as the moderns.'

 

Clutton, more taciturn than ever, did not answer, but he looked at Lawson with a sardonic¹⁵ air.

 

'Are you going to show us the stuff you've brought back from Spain?' asked Philip.

 

'I didn't paint in Spain, I was too busy.'

 

'What did you do then?'

 

'I thought things out. I believe I'm through with the Impressionists; I've got an idea they'll seem very thin and superficial in a few years. I want to make a clean sweep of everything I've learnt and start fresh. When I came back I destroyed everything I'd painted. I've got nothing in my studio now but an easel, my paints, and some clean canvases.'

 

'What are you going to do?'

 

'I don't know yet. I've only got an inkling of what I want.'

 

He spoke slowly, in a curious manner, as though he were straining to hear something which was only just audible. There seemed to be a mysterious force in him which he himself did not understand, but which was struggling obscurely to find an outlet¹⁶. His strength impressed you. Lawson dreaded¹⁷ the criticism he asked for and had discounted the blame he thought he might get by affecting a contempt for any opinion of Clutton's; but Philip knew there was nothing which would give him more pleasure than Clutton's praise. Clutton looked at the portrait for some time in silence, then glanced at Philip's picture, which was standing¹⁸ on an easel.

 

'What's that?' he asked.

 

'Oh, I had a shot at a portrait too.'

 

'The sedulous¹⁹ ape,' he murmured.

 

He turned away again to Lawson's canvas. Philip reddened but did not speak.

 

'Well, what d'you think of it?' asked Lawson at length.

 

'The modelling's jolly good,' said Clutton. 'And I think it's very well drawn²⁰.'

 

'D'you think the values are all right?'

 

'Quite.'

 

Lawson smiled with delight. He shook himself in his clothes like a wet dog.

 

'I say, I'm jolly glad you like it.'

 

'I don't. I don't think it's of the smallest importance.'

 

Lawson's face fell, and he stared at Clutton with astonishment²¹: he had no notion what he meant, Clutton had no gift of expression in words, and he spoke as though it were an effort. What he had to say was confused, halting, and verbose²²; but Philip knew the words which served as the text of his rambling²³ discourse²⁴. Clutton, who never read, had heard them first from Cronshaw; and though they had made small impression, they had remained in his memory; and lately, emerging on a sudden, had acquired the character of a revelation: a good painter had two chief objects to paint, namely, man and the intention of his soul. The Impressionists had been occupied with other problems, they had painted man admirably, but they had troubled themselves as little as the English portrait painters of the eighteenth century with the intention of his soul.

 

'But when you try to get that you become literary,' said Lawson, interrupting. 'Let me paint the man like Manet, and the intention of his soul can go to the devil.'

 

'That would be all very well if you could beat Manet at his own game, but you can't get anywhere near him. You can't feed yourself on the day before yesterday, it's ground which has been swept dry. You must go back. It's when I saw the Grecos that I felt one could get something more out of portraits than we knew before.'

 

'It's just going back to Ruskin,' cried Lawson.

 

'No—you see, he went for morality: I don't care a damn for morality: teaching doesn't come in, ethics²⁵ and all that, but passion and emotion. The greatest portrait painters have painted both, man and the intention of his soul; Rembrandt and El Greco; it's only the second-raters who've only painted man. A lily of the valley would be lovely even if it didn't smell, but it's more lovely because it has perfume. That picture'—he pointed²⁶ to Lawson's portrait—'well, the drawing's all right and so's the modelling all right, but just conventional; it ought to be drawn and modelled so that you know the girl's a lousy slut. Correctness is all very well: El Greco made his people eight feet high because he wanted to express something he couldn't get any other way.'

 

'Damn El Greco,' said Lawson, 'what's the good of jawing²⁷ about a man when we haven't a chance of seeing any of his work?'

 

Clutton shrugged²⁸ his shoulders, smoked a cigarette in silence, and went away. Philip and Lawson looked at one another.

 

'There's something in what he says,' said Philip.

 

Lawson stared ill-temperedly at his picture.

 

'How the devil is one to get the intention of the soul except by painting exactly what one sees?'

 

About this time Philip made a new friend. On Monday morning models assembled at the school in order that one might be chosen for the week, and one day a young man was taken who was plainly not a model by profession. Philip's attention was attracted by the manner in which he held himself: when he got on to the stand he stood firmly on both feet, square, with clenched²⁹ hands, and with his head defiantly³⁰ thrown forward; the attitude emphasised his fine figure; there was no fat on him, and his muscles stood out as though they were of iron. His head, close-cropped, was well-shaped, and he wore a short beard; he had large, dark eyes and heavy eyebrows³². He held the pose hour after hour without appearance of fatigue³³. There was in his mien³⁴ a mixture of shame and of determination. His air of passionate³⁵ energy excited Philip's romantic imagination, and when, the sitting ended, he saw him in his clothes, it seemed to him that he wore them as though he were a king in rags. He was uncommunicative, but in a day or two Mrs. Otter told Philip that the model was a Spaniard and that he had never sat before.

 

'I suppose he was starving,' said Philip.

 

'Have you noticed his clothes? They're quite neat and decent, aren't they?'

 

It chanced that Potter, one of the Americans who worked at Amitrano's, was going to Italy for a couple of months, and offered his studio to Philip. Philip was pleased. He was growing a little impatient of Lawson's peremptory³⁶ advice and wanted to be by himself. At the end of the week he went up to the model and on the pretence³⁷ that his drawing was not finished asked whether he would come and sit to him one day.

 

'I'm not a model,' the Spaniard answered. 'I have other things to do next week.'

 

'Come and have luncheon³⁸ with me now, and we'll talk about it,' said Philip, and as the other hesitated, he added with a smile: 'It won't hurt you to lunch with me.'

 

With a shrug of the shoulders the model consented, and they went off to a cremerie. The Spaniard spoke broken French, fluent but difficult to follow, and Philip managed to get on well enough with him. He found out that he was a writer. He had come to Paris to write novels and kept himself meanwhile by all the expedients³⁹ possible to a penniless man; he gave lessons, he did any translations he could get hold of, chiefly business documents, and at last had been driven to make money by his fine figure. Sitting was well paid, and what he had earned during the last week was enough to keep him for two more; he told Philip, amazed, that he could live easily on two francs a day; but it filled him with shame that he was obliged to show his body for money, and he looked upon sitting as a degradation⁴⁰ which only hunger could excuse. Philip explained that he did not want him to sit for the figure, but only for the head; he wished to do a portrait of him which he might send to the next Salon.

 

'But why should you want to paint me?' asked the Spaniard.

 

Philip answered that the head interested him, he thought he could do a good portrait.

 

'I can't afford the time. I grudge⁴¹ every minute that I have to rob from my writing.'

 

'But it would only be in the afternoon. I work at the school in the morning. After all, it's better to sit to me than to do translations of legal documents.'

 

There were legends in the Latin quarter of a time when students of different countries lived together intimately, but this was long since passed, and now the various nations were almost as much separated as in an Oriental city. At Julian's and at the Beaux Arts a French student was looked upon with disfavour by his fellow-countrymen when he consorted⁴² with foreigners, and it was difficult for an Englishman to know more than quite superficially any native inhabitants of the city in which he dwelt. Indeed, many of the students after living in Paris for five years knew no more French than served them in shops and lived as English a life as though they were working in South Kensington.

 

Philip, with his passion for the romantic, welcomed the opportunity to get in touch with a Spaniard; he used all his persuasiveness⁴³ to overcome the man's reluctance⁴⁴.

 

'I'll tell you what I'll do,' said the Spaniard at last. 'I'll sit to you, but not for money, for my own pleasure.'

 

Philip expostulated, but the other was firm, and at length they arranged that he should come on the following Monday at one o'clock. He gave Philip a card on which was printed his name: Miguel Ajuria.

 

Miguel sat regularly, and though he refused to accept payment he borrowed fifty francs from Philip every now and then: it was a little more expensive than if Philip had paid for the sittings in the usual way; but gave the Spaniard a satisfactory feeling that he was not earning his living in a degrading manner. His nationality made Philip regard him as a representative of romance, and he asked him about Seville and Granada, Velasquez and Calderon. But Miguel bad no patience with the grandeur⁴⁵ of his country. For him, as for so many of his compatriots, France was the only country for a man of intelligence and Paris the centre of the world.

 

'Spain is dead,' he cried. 'It has no writers, it has no art, it has nothing.'

 

Little by little, with the exuberant⁴⁶ rhetoric⁴⁷ of his race, he revealed his ambitions. He was writing a novel which he hoped would make his name. He was under the influence of Zola, and he had set his scene in Paris. He told Philip the story at length. To Philip it seemed crude and stupid; the naive⁴⁸ obscenity—c'est la vie, mon cher, c'est la vie, he cried—the naive obscenity served only to emphasise³¹ the conventionality of the anecdote⁴⁹. He had written for two years, amid incredible hardships, denying himself all the pleasures of life which had attracted him to Paris, fighting with starvation for art's sake, determined⁵⁰ that nothing should hinder his great achievement. The effort was heroic.

 

'But why don't you write about Spain?' cried Philip. 'It would be so much more interesting. You know the life.'

 

'But Paris is the only place worth writing about. Paris is life.'

 

One day he brought part of the manuscript, and in his bad French, translating excitedly as he went along so that Philip could scarcely understand, he read passages. It was lamentable⁵¹. Philip, puzzled, looked at the picture he was painting: the mind behind that broad brow was trivial; and the flashing, passionate eyes saw nothing in life but the obvious. Philip was not satisfied with his portrait, and at the end of a sitting he nearly always scraped out what he had done. It was all very well to aim at the intention of the soul: who could tell what that was when people seemed a mass of contradictions? He liked Miguel, and it distressed⁵² him to realise that his magnificent struggle was futile⁵³: he had everything to make a good writer but talent. Philip looked at his own work. How could you tell whether there was anything in it or whether you were wasting your time? It was clear that the will to achieve could not help you and confidence in yourself meant nothing. Philip thought of Fanny Price; she had a vehement⁵⁴ belief in her talent; her strength of will was extraordinary.

 

'If I thought I wasn't going to be really good, I'd rather give up painting,' said Philip. 'I don't see any use in being a second-rate painter.'

 

Then one morning when he was going out, the concierge⁵⁵ called out to him that there was a letter. Nobody wrote to him but his Aunt Louisa and sometimes Hayward, and this was a handwriting he did not know. The letter was as follows:

 

Please come at once when you get this. I couldn't put up with it any more. Please come yourself. I can't bear the thought that anyone else should touch me. I want you to have everything.

 

F. Price

 

I have not had anything to eat for three days.

 

Philip felt on a sudden sick with fear. He hurried to the house in which she lived. He was astonished that she was in Paris at all. He had not seen her for months and imagined she had long since returned to England. When he arrived he asked the concierge whether she was in.

 

'Yes, I've not seen her go out for two days.'

 

Philip ran upstairs and knocked at the door. There was no reply. He called her name. The door was locked, and on bending down he found the key was in the lock.

 

'Oh, my God, I hope she hasn't done something awful,' he cried aloud.

 

He ran down and told the porter that she was certainly in the room. He had had a letter from her and feared a terrible accident. He suggested breaking open the door. The porter, who had been sullen⁵⁶ and disinclined to listen, became alarmed; he could not take the responsibility of breaking into the room; they must go for the commissaire de police. They walked together to the bureau, and then they fetched a locksmith. Philip found that Miss Price had not paid the last quarter's rent: on New Year's Day she had not given the concierge the present which old-established custom led him to regard as a right. The four of them went upstairs, and they knocked again at the door. There was no reply. The locksmith set to work, and at last they entered the room. Philip gave a cry and instinctively⁵⁷ covered his eyes with his hands. The wretched woman was hanging with a rope round her neck, which she had tied to a hook in the ceiling fixed⁵⁸ by some previous tenant⁵⁹ to hold up the curtains of the bed. She had moved her own little bed out of the way and had stood on a chair, which had been kicked away. it was lying on its side on the floor. They cut her down. The body was quite cold.

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